Going down, baby!

I'm completely out of money so it's bringing me down in the pothole. I'm down on my luck, baby. I'm enjoying the downfall of my money. I'm wasting every penny on personal needs. It's kinda sad because I run into the hole all the time. Hmmm, no help from anybody but myself because I'm I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-T! I'm just waiting patiently for a good financial blessing. Maybe I need to stop offering services for free and start charging because I'm tired of not having any money but the money I make through associates. I'm holding on and thinking, I'm going to soon be blessed with some money, hopefully. I will be ok. Goddamn, life has got me caught up. I don't depend on anybody for money so it's kind of hard to take anything from people. Geez, Louise. Good lord, why in the hell am I falling. I'm supposed to be prosperous. What is going on? I can't even hold myself together because I'm shocked over it. Things are getting expensive in this world and I can't afford items as much as I used to. I believe I need to slow down and spend wise so I don't keep running myself out of money. I have to remember I'm the only person I really got in life so got to do what's best for me. I will soon learn my lesson. Life sucks but I'm going to deal with it. I love life somewhat now since it's better but what's the most stressful thing in my life is that I depend on myself the most. My independence has made me a better, stronger, wiser person. Hmmm, I think I'm not going down now. I seem pretty confident about the situation. I won't crash ever! I'm going to try to love life and succeed. I'm a man and I do cry so yeah, it's ok to cry if you are a man. Tragedy or devastation can make a person cry so use it as an excuse.

Happy now?

I'm completely feeble minded, torn from the bone, and finally on lock down. What is keeping me bounded is the way I'm getting treated and my privates thoughts that are constantly weakening my soul and mind. I'm risking my life by making sacrifices. It's hard because I'm not helping myself at all through the process. The crying is over in my life but the pain is hurting my soul and I'm growing more inferior to people. I hate the way I sometimes feel inside. I can't even show what I'm feeling because it's too much of a hustle to my heart. I can explain it though... My tongue sometimes get a feeling of bursting out the truth. My heart sometimes get the feeling of coming out and confronting people with my anger. My life sometimes get the feeling of isolation. What is wrong? My soul is weakening from it all. Some people I want to blame for it but I can't because I don't like to blame people. There's one person that I do want to confront and tell them congratulations for winning the award of weakening my soul by emotionally abusing me. She's a woman and I believe she doesn't deserve any respect from me but I still give respect because I'm generous. In my dream I wished I could back five years from now but I can't. I'm now left at the edge of cliff thinking about jumping but I still oppose of it because I got a sweet life ahead of me. One thing I want to say is, I'm going to move on with my life and forget about the overwhelming, overbearing abuse I had to go through just to get to this point of life. Life is better for me, I'm completely emotionally sick from abuse. I will ask the question to the person that did abuse me if she is happy now? I love her but don't want to have anything to do with her. She can get a life for all I care.

Kudos to somebody.

I was reading another person's blog and it was great. Perfect note on the blog! I actually learned more about the person reading the blog. Oh my god, the blog was great. In the note, from his beginning to ending it explains how the person started out his high school years naive then by the end of his high school years he notices that writing made him a self-conscious and better person. In the note, he believed as the years moved by, after his sophomore year, he became wiser and he start to notice some of his talents. In his junior year, the awareness of writing became his interest. He mentioned that blogging and writing allowed him to get his feelings out. He also mentioned even though he was writing to get his feeling s out, it still didn't allow him to really express what he was truly feeling in his heart. At the moment reading the note, it turned me on. I was interested in knowing more about his drive of interest because to this day I relate to his situation. Anyways, I can't say anything else because I am shocked about it. I feel as if that person could be me or I can be him. Times before, I had negative impressions about the guy but now I feel different about him and I feel what he feels. The note was great because it's the beauty of relativity. It taught me how people can be similar in a way but live different lives. The note was a good reading and I loved it. I'm sure the guy will be successful in life.

Fearless

Fear is just excitement for an attitude, I don't believe in fearing anything. I might run across something that might seem weird first time but I eventually get over it. I try not to have fear in anything I do, see or discover because fear shows weakness and I don't want to be known as a weak person. I'm strong willing and non-god fearing person. I wouldn't want to change for anything. I think I have gotten so far down the road that I should continue going without fearing anything. Where I been is a place nobody would want to go so it's a reason why I don't fear anything. My life experiences are extremely bad, this is another reason I don't fear. I want to be strong and be a beast through the storm of fire.

Life, money and success.

Crashed.

I wish I was homed school. I hate school. If teachers and friends don't care about me, I shouldn't really care about them. It's not just school, people in general are making me sick. I feel like just saying, "Screw em' all!" It's not the appropriate way to go about a situation though. I wish I could just run away from home and teach myself the things I need to know in life. I'm going to succeed in life, I'm not going to be a failure. People who believe I will stray away from achieving are the people who are wrong. I just want to get the hell away from everybody. It seems as if I been creating hell for myself every since I been trying to make friends and love out of nothing. I call it a pothole full of demons. I believe love,respect, and acceptance are the three, most important attributes of life. Sometimes I feel as if those attributes has faded. People, life and attributes are the levels of the game. If so it is true, the game is over. It would be much better for me to be the only person living on Earth. This whole place is just crashed... Humans are sometimes not the best and it's sickening.

Sincerely,

Demetre Phipps

Acceptance

Life, love and acceptance. Growing up in this world has been hard. I been observing people's actions towards me and I been feeling inferior to all people because I realize I'm not like others. So many times I was wished I could be like everybody else but I can't. It's sad because I've isolated myself from everybody, even my relatives just because I'm different... Different as in I don't fit in. Everyday I encourage myself not to complain because I know for sure that their are others out here in this world that is suffering like me. Tell me why? "Every day I ask myself what will I have to prove to be man?(Declan, 2006)." Hmmm, I think I will be just fine though. I'm confident that I'm going to get through the storm without any scars. "Tell me why does it have to be like this.[...] I don't understand, when somebody needs somebody, we don't give a helping hand.(Declan Galbraith)" Tell me why? I try not to question a lot but sometimes I need answers. What's good though, I question for the good of me. Questioning is making me a better person. It's a way of getting answers for encouragement and inspiration. I need love, life, and acceptance. God only knows how I feel. ...

Just the same...

Everything is to gain, noting is to lose! Working so hard but not getting anything out of it. It's the hardest thing to do when there isn't any motivation or hope. Life can be a bitch sometimes. Trying the best to be the best at age 17 years old. I have my cries through it all. In respect of me, I keep doing the best I can though. Nothing is going to get me down because I'm a good example of being a real man. Even though everything keeps staying the same, I still do something to try to change. GI'm a good person for doing what I do. Only if people knew me and seen the things I do. Sad thing, only God knows....

Love of life...

If you work to the top, you will be on top. If you don't work to the top, you shouldn't deserve to be on top. Effort that is given should be fully 100% in order to see reaction. The reaction you might get is mainly positive unless there is more effort to be put into. With the possessions and gifts of giving effort you will be able to succeed but laziness will not help you in any way o achieving. The laziness of your soul will kill you as if you are dying of an illness. Motivation is the way to upkeep the ability of your status. If you do not work for it, you don't deserve it! Man up and actually work your ass off for what you want. People that don't work their asses off for their money are lazy, sick, and shouldn't deserve anything. Losers do not make it in this world so take my word and be 100% hard working.

Word of tears...

You hear, you see or you feel.

La, la , la , la, melody of a singer. You hear.

"Hooray! It's time for partying," cheers of a crowd. You hear.

Dreading blood from a deer after it has been shot too death. You see.

Mumbling coming from an angry person that hides within himself. You hear.

Screaming from a child that is in danger or that tends to want it's way. You hear.

Whining from a infant when it's born. You hear.

Barking from a dog when dog that is being defensive. You hear.

Reading from a class that is interested. You see.

The texture of the sofa when you get home. You feel.

The smile on your face when something is being craved for. You feel

The way in which people think. You see.

The tears of a person that is dying, hurting, or in pain. You feel.

Words of tears...

Goodbye Demon...

Life to me is something, I live it now without any complaints. I been through the pain and hurt and I'm still surviving. Just living life, I say. I got a great story to tell for young generations to come. I've already told some others but I believe it will teach generations to come how to deal with their problems. I experienced child abuse, suicidal moments, overwhelming and devastating events. The situation is horrifying but the experiences has made me a better person. I'm trying to now see everything as optimistic even though it's taking time. I still have my flaws about things and myself but I'm soon going to overcome it. Promises are kicking in. I wouldn't have to worry about anything. One thing : only God knows how I feel, what I think, how I live and when I need a break. The demon inside of me has finally came out and I'm so much better than what I used to be. I might not have a strong bond with God but I know that he; the father, can help a person like me. I'm not ever going to lose hope. I'm going to be bold, strong and willing to do what it takes for the shackles of my soul to be gone. Optimism is my kind of way thinking...

Government Value

Government shall speak of nothing and should let the people be spoken. Hmmm, ironically, people shouldn't have a voice in society, only elections. Stand for change! Whoot, whoot! Today I learned a valuable lesson! The lesson is to not complain about the government system, because there is hope. The economic situation is improving, along with the financial debt we still undergo. Hope is the motive, inspiration of today's society. I , Demetre, never seen it coming for us. Change is what we thrived for at the beginning and change is what we got. I believe most people felt hopeless because the world seemed like it was moving fast. In all means it was really moving slow for us to see everything in slow motion. Everything negative has became the focus of media, just so that the world could see a different aspect of life. Life isn't all about living up to positivity. Sometimes it takes a little negativity to stir and spread motivation around the world. Hopelessness is not an option while the world spins into negativity. People who are hopeless are people that tend not to have any interest of experiencing new things. Experiences cause about awareness in one self's stability. Without stability, individual wouldn't be able to be self dependent. Most individuals who aren't independent tend to have the Government do things for them. I believe the government impacts these type of people. These type of people shouldn't have any say about the government only if it's negative. The main reason is because the government is helping them survive so mouth should be kept shut and the individual should go with the flow. Oh how I love the world establishment of Government setup in America. If people need something, the government is reliable but one thing consequences are implied and it's the whole conclusion of government value, supply, and time.

Calmly in your place...

Just sit around and relax, calmly in your place.
Try to hear that voice screaming, "Isolate your face."

Think, think, think to yourself.
You have the mind to reach for the skies, simply for your health.
Never ever give up, never break away.
Nobody can tell you who you are, any day.

Cry, let it out and then after, smile.
The feelings of resentment will only last a while.
Never think you'll lose everything that you have gained.
It's only the voices in your head that says you'll the one to blame.

Bleep, sing, jump to a melody.
Songs of the heart you'll never see.
Never walk astray as deep as you will soon.
Death is not a way, it's just another wound.

Speak of the positive and show your grin.
Never be sad, show what's within.
Bold, willing, hard working as you always been.
Not today, not ever, will be the end.

Keeping pressing, keep striving to be the best.
It's a demand because this is a test.
Never give up, never disbelieve grace.
Just motivate yourself calmly in your place.

Keep my name out of your mouth....

As many times I said before, keep my name out your mouth! I’m usually a nice guy and try my best to put up with talk but if a person don’t know me, why would they make automatic judgments or even mention a name. My life shouldn’t concern the person unless the person is jealous, worried about me, or is a friend. If not one of the options , I believe the person shouldn’t be concern. The world would be a better place if people stay out of other people’s personal life. Hmmm, a guy from school had spread a rumor about me being homosexual and I truly deny it. If it’s not coming from me I believe it’s not true. I deny being homosexual and for the ones that believe or even heard it, I deny it. Only close friends knows the truth about me so keep my name out your mouth if you don’t know a damn thing about me. Literally! I’m not angry, mad, or upset, I just believe some people talk only what they think they know or what they assume. It’s not fair in humanities to make assumptions. Assumptions are not always the accurate solutions. Solutions aren’t always accurate either. Hmmm, I been doing very well dealing with people that love to spread rumors but one thing I wish people can look into themselves to see what they can find in themselves. Eye to eye, touch to touch, what is wrong? It’s absurd! Anyways, I’m still going to live life no matter what people say or do. Haters will hate on me but I will love em’ til’ death. Latr.


Note the quote:


“The best love to have is the love for the people that hate on you. Love is kind, always….” (Demetre Phipps, 2010)

Boldness of Character.

Never, never, never run into somebody without having a way to proceed in doing so without altercations. Come up with a plan first. Develop a plan that is convenient and successful. Self confidence, being wise is another way of being successful. Don't ever think you are going to fail at something. If so you do think it, there is a chance that you will be a failure.Have confidence and take heed of your words. Be precised with the decisions you make too as you go through the process. When a person believe they can't do anything, the hopeless feeling stresses that person to believe it. Eventually, it will become a characteristic of that person. Every word that you speak is confessed by the tongue. Watch out what you say. The boldness of your character is inside of you. You have to find that boldness. It's the pride you should have for yourself in believing that success can be complete. Day 2 never comes until Day 1 is over, right? Well you have to wait and see how things turn out in order to know what you are able to do. Never show the weakened side of your character because I promise you will never get anywhere in life. you can grow efficiently with the words you use and the decisions you make. It comes by self-confidence so start today by motivating yourself in the interests which you are not well adapted to. Live like We're dying so believe that you can achieve...

Walk Away from Negativity...

1. What do you do?

Ignore what people do and say when they try to get in the way of you. You should stop yourself, walk away and don't ever look back from where the distractions are coming. Just walk away...

2. Strut Game.

When you are in need of mind settling. Leave the environment you are in and get away.
Do something productive with yourself such as taking a walk, talking to somebody about your feelings, or isolate yourself from others so that you can be able to think. This is the escape...

3. Having a bad day?

Pray, meditate, hand your burdens to somebody else that can at least carry 'em. Don't carry the weight on your shoulders. The weight will feel like the world is on your shoulders. Not a way of living. Hmmm... Scream, smile, cry, do something to let the feelings out. Don't harm anybody though.

4. Go after it, from faith to faith, from glory to glory.

Smile, be happy and keep living life as if nothing in this world can tear you down. This world can sometimes seem like a rock inside of an exploding volcano but you go to keep going. You will make it through only if you know where you come from and where you are going. Love life and don't give up!


5. Love yourself and life will be better.

Do what's best for you, not what others think what is best for you. Never let your friends or people make you who you are. Live by your own intuition. Love yourself deep inside, don't chase after nothing but for love in oneself.

A Successful Mind...

10 Ways of thinking, 10 ways of living...

Thinking...

1.
• Open-Minded

2.
• Kindhearted

3.
• Considerate

4.
• Matters of Responsibility

5.
• Being Wise

6.
• Precise Decision-Making

7.
• Awareness of Imperfections

8.
• Independence

9.
• Determining Forgiveness

10.
• Goals to Success

Attributes of Living

1.
• Loving person

2.
• Caring person

3.
• A Forgiving person

4.
• Prideful / Boldness of Character / Introverted & Extroverted Person

5.
• Psychedelic

6.
• Kind

7.
• Enjoyable

8.
• Constructive Living

9.
• Self-Control

10.
• Hardship Preparation

Amazing Story...

A bright sunny, rainy morning brought about the day of signs. He silently lied there resting peacefully. He had the structure of a beast and the length of a giraffe, slightly hanging off the edge of the broke down bed. All of a sudden he jumped up from the flat surface where he had rested for days then he went into cardiac arrest. Shaking, mumbling, back and forth muscle spasms, eyes rolling back in the head. Finally he died! The storm crept in through the window, shattered glass on the floor, the wall was struck by lightning, Christmas tree fell to the floor and lights dangled back and forth. What the hell is going on he thought. There’s a knock at the door. The sound of bells ringing, voice screaming, “ Jontavious, Jontavious, Jontavious!” The house started caving in! The voice that was once there started fading away. He finally awoke from his sleep. Sweating, shocked as he ever been in his lifetime! He got out of bed, made way to kitchen, took a look in the refrigerator, there was nothing so he walked away. Walking over to his tree, he stumbled! There were presents under the tree, his eyes got big. The guy never had money or even went shopping. He questioned, where did the presents come from. No answers but he did inspect the presents. The names followed up to be his neighbors. Ironically, his neighbors been dead for two years. “What the hell is going on?” He questioned again, “There is no way. God, what is going on? I have not a penny in my pockets I spent or prospered, how could this be?” While he took time to speak to himself the world outside was dead. He alone had the world in his hands without even knowing it. Without hesitating, he walked over to his window looking out. All he seen was a dark spade in the night, the wind blowing in the midst of the woods and the branches falling from the trees. The guy starts to cry tears. He awakes again. He noticed It was a dream inside of a dream. He had woke up inside of another dream while dreaming the first one. The expression he showed was sadness, tears started running down his face and that’s when he finally got up from bed. The phone started to ring, he ran over to the dresser, picked the phone from the telephone holder and answered it. “Hello”, he answered. “John, is this you?” The anonymous voice asked. “ Yes this is me, what do you want and who is this?” he asked. “Your neighbors are dead!” the voice exclaimed. He starts thinking to himself. Hmmm…. What is going on?… Is that dream reality?... He fell to the floor; after, he went into cardiac arrest. Before gasping for air to notice he was in cardiac arrest, he died. It could have not been the Jon everyone knew. 4 days later his aunt Clara appeared on his door step, looked in the window and seen his body laying on the floor. She banged on the window several of times and then screamed, “ Open up john…. Snap out if, John! The people are on their way to help. Please John, for me!” The body just lied there on the tile floor shaking. Next thing, Clara walked over to one of the boarded up windows and kicked in through the wood. She got into the house, walked through the kitchen into the room where John laid. She fell to her knees and cried. The cry was weird because she spoke of death upon his soul then she wished life for his remains. After she had done it, ambulance arrived. Paramedics rushed in through the door, Clara started screaming again. She cried aloud, “Please lord don’t take him from me!” Paramedics started lifting his body from the ground, he awakes. He then said, “ Clara, what are you doing here?” “Oh I’m just checking on you, John!” she said. “Can everybody leave now?” he asked. Everybody started to leave out the door. He shuts the door behind them. He finally walked upstairs to his bedroom and lie down. “Oh what a day,” he said. He was sleep again…