Going down, baby!

I'm completely out of money so it's bringing me down in the pothole. I'm down on my luck, baby. I'm enjoying the downfall of my money. I'm wasting every penny on personal needs. It's kinda sad because I run into the hole all the time. Hmmm, no help from anybody but myself because I'm I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-T! I'm just waiting patiently for a good financial blessing. Maybe I need to stop offering services for free and start charging because I'm tired of not having any money but the money I make through associates. I'm holding on and thinking, I'm going to soon be blessed with some money, hopefully. I will be ok. Goddamn, life has got me caught up. I don't depend on anybody for money so it's kind of hard to take anything from people. Geez, Louise. Good lord, why in the hell am I falling. I'm supposed to be prosperous. What is going on? I can't even hold myself together because I'm shocked over it. Things are getting expensive in this world and I can't afford items as much as I used to. I believe I need to slow down and spend wise so I don't keep running myself out of money. I have to remember I'm the only person I really got in life so got to do what's best for me. I will soon learn my lesson. Life sucks but I'm going to deal with it. I love life somewhat now since it's better but what's the most stressful thing in my life is that I depend on myself the most. My independence has made me a better, stronger, wiser person. Hmmm, I think I'm not going down now. I seem pretty confident about the situation. I won't crash ever! I'm going to try to love life and succeed. I'm a man and I do cry so yeah, it's ok to cry if you are a man. Tragedy or devastation can make a person cry so use it as an excuse.

Kudos to somebody.

I was reading another person's blog and it was great. Perfect note on the blog! I actually learned more about the person reading the blog. Oh my god, the blog was great. In the note, from his beginning to ending it explains how the person started out his high school years naive then by the end of his high school years he notices that writing made him a self-conscious and better person. In the note, he believed as the years moved by, after his sophomore year, he became wiser and he start to notice some of his talents. In his junior year, the awareness of writing became his interest. He mentioned that blogging and writing allowed him to get his feelings out. He also mentioned even though he was writing to get his feeling s out, it still didn't allow him to really express what he was truly feeling in his heart. At the moment reading the note, it turned me on. I was interested in knowing more about his drive of interest because to this day I relate to his situation. Anyways, I can't say anything else because I am shocked about it. I feel as if that person could be me or I can be him. Times before, I had negative impressions about the guy but now I feel different about him and I feel what he feels. The note was great because it's the beauty of relativity. It taught me how people can be similar in a way but live different lives. The note was a good reading and I loved it. I'm sure the guy will be successful in life.

Fearless

Fear is just excitement for an attitude, I don't believe in fearing anything. I might run across something that might seem weird first time but I eventually get over it. I try not to have fear in anything I do, see or discover because fear shows weakness and I don't want to be known as a weak person. I'm strong willing and non-god fearing person. I wouldn't want to change for anything. I think I have gotten so far down the road that I should continue going without fearing anything. Where I been is a place nobody would want to go so it's a reason why I don't fear anything. My life experiences are extremely bad, this is another reason I don't fear. I want to be strong and be a beast through the storm of fire.

Life, money and success.

Crashed.

I wish I was homed school. I hate school. If teachers and friends don't care about me, I shouldn't really care about them. It's not just school, people in general are making me sick. I feel like just saying, "Screw em' all!" It's not the appropriate way to go about a situation though. I wish I could just run away from home and teach myself the things I need to know in life. I'm going to succeed in life, I'm not going to be a failure. People who believe I will stray away from achieving are the people who are wrong. I just want to get the hell away from everybody. It seems as if I been creating hell for myself every since I been trying to make friends and love out of nothing. I call it a pothole full of demons. I believe love,respect, and acceptance are the three, most important attributes of life. Sometimes I feel as if those attributes has faded. People, life and attributes are the levels of the game. If so it is true, the game is over. It would be much better for me to be the only person living on Earth. This whole place is just crashed... Humans are sometimes not the best and it's sickening.

Sincerely,

Demetre Phipps

Word of tears...

You hear, you see or you feel.

La, la , la , la, melody of a singer. You hear.

"Hooray! It's time for partying," cheers of a crowd. You hear.

Dreading blood from a deer after it has been shot too death. You see.

Mumbling coming from an angry person that hides within himself. You hear.

Screaming from a child that is in danger or that tends to want it's way. You hear.

Whining from a infant when it's born. You hear.

Barking from a dog when dog that is being defensive. You hear.

Reading from a class that is interested. You see.

The texture of the sofa when you get home. You feel.

The smile on your face when something is being craved for. You feel

The way in which people think. You see.

The tears of a person that is dying, hurting, or in pain. You feel.

Words of tears...

Calmly in your place...

Just sit around and relax, calmly in your place.
Try to hear that voice screaming, "Isolate your face."

Think, think, think to yourself.
You have the mind to reach for the skies, simply for your health.
Never ever give up, never break away.
Nobody can tell you who you are, any day.

Cry, let it out and then after, smile.
The feelings of resentment will only last a while.
Never think you'll lose everything that you have gained.
It's only the voices in your head that says you'll the one to blame.

Bleep, sing, jump to a melody.
Songs of the heart you'll never see.
Never walk astray as deep as you will soon.
Death is not a way, it's just another wound.

Speak of the positive and show your grin.
Never be sad, show what's within.
Bold, willing, hard working as you always been.
Not today, not ever, will be the end.

Keeping pressing, keep striving to be the best.
It's a demand because this is a test.
Never give up, never disbelieve grace.
Just motivate yourself calmly in your place.

Keep my name out of your mouth....

As many times I said before, keep my name out your mouth! I’m usually a nice guy and try my best to put up with talk but if a person don’t know me, why would they make automatic judgments or even mention a name. My life shouldn’t concern the person unless the person is jealous, worried about me, or is a friend. If not one of the options , I believe the person shouldn’t be concern. The world would be a better place if people stay out of other people’s personal life. Hmmm, a guy from school had spread a rumor about me being homosexual and I truly deny it. If it’s not coming from me I believe it’s not true. I deny being homosexual and for the ones that believe or even heard it, I deny it. Only close friends knows the truth about me so keep my name out your mouth if you don’t know a damn thing about me. Literally! I’m not angry, mad, or upset, I just believe some people talk only what they think they know or what they assume. It’s not fair in humanities to make assumptions. Assumptions are not always the accurate solutions. Solutions aren’t always accurate either. Hmmm, I been doing very well dealing with people that love to spread rumors but one thing I wish people can look into themselves to see what they can find in themselves. Eye to eye, touch to touch, what is wrong? It’s absurd! Anyways, I’m still going to live life no matter what people say or do. Haters will hate on me but I will love em’ til’ death. Latr.


Note the quote:


“The best love to have is the love for the people that hate on you. Love is kind, always….” (Demetre Phipps, 2010)

Boldness of Character.

Never, never, never run into somebody without having a way to proceed in doing so without altercations. Come up with a plan first. Develop a plan that is convenient and successful. Self confidence, being wise is another way of being successful. Don't ever think you are going to fail at something. If so you do think it, there is a chance that you will be a failure.Have confidence and take heed of your words. Be precised with the decisions you make too as you go through the process. When a person believe they can't do anything, the hopeless feeling stresses that person to believe it. Eventually, it will become a characteristic of that person. Every word that you speak is confessed by the tongue. Watch out what you say. The boldness of your character is inside of you. You have to find that boldness. It's the pride you should have for yourself in believing that success can be complete. Day 2 never comes until Day 1 is over, right? Well you have to wait and see how things turn out in order to know what you are able to do. Never show the weakened side of your character because I promise you will never get anywhere in life. you can grow efficiently with the words you use and the decisions you make. It comes by self-confidence so start today by motivating yourself in the interests which you are not well adapted to. Live like We're dying so believe that you can achieve...

A Successful Mind...

10 Ways of thinking, 10 ways of living...

Thinking...

1.
• Open-Minded

2.
• Kindhearted

3.
• Considerate

4.
• Matters of Responsibility

5.
• Being Wise

6.
• Precise Decision-Making

7.
• Awareness of Imperfections

8.
• Independence

9.
• Determining Forgiveness

10.
• Goals to Success

Attributes of Living

1.
• Loving person

2.
• Caring person

3.
• A Forgiving person

4.
• Prideful / Boldness of Character / Introverted & Extroverted Person

5.
• Psychedelic

6.
• Kind

7.
• Enjoyable

8.
• Constructive Living

9.
• Self-Control

10.
• Hardship Preparation

Amazing Story...

A bright sunny, rainy morning brought about the day of signs. He silently lied there resting peacefully. He had the structure of a beast and the length of a giraffe, slightly hanging off the edge of the broke down bed. All of a sudden he jumped up from the flat surface where he had rested for days then he went into cardiac arrest. Shaking, mumbling, back and forth muscle spasms, eyes rolling back in the head. Finally he died! The storm crept in through the window, shattered glass on the floor, the wall was struck by lightning, Christmas tree fell to the floor and lights dangled back and forth. What the hell is going on he thought. There’s a knock at the door. The sound of bells ringing, voice screaming, “ Jontavious, Jontavious, Jontavious!” The house started caving in! The voice that was once there started fading away. He finally awoke from his sleep. Sweating, shocked as he ever been in his lifetime! He got out of bed, made way to kitchen, took a look in the refrigerator, there was nothing so he walked away. Walking over to his tree, he stumbled! There were presents under the tree, his eyes got big. The guy never had money or even went shopping. He questioned, where did the presents come from. No answers but he did inspect the presents. The names followed up to be his neighbors. Ironically, his neighbors been dead for two years. “What the hell is going on?” He questioned again, “There is no way. God, what is going on? I have not a penny in my pockets I spent or prospered, how could this be?” While he took time to speak to himself the world outside was dead. He alone had the world in his hands without even knowing it. Without hesitating, he walked over to his window looking out. All he seen was a dark spade in the night, the wind blowing in the midst of the woods and the branches falling from the trees. The guy starts to cry tears. He awakes again. He noticed It was a dream inside of a dream. He had woke up inside of another dream while dreaming the first one. The expression he showed was sadness, tears started running down his face and that’s when he finally got up from bed. The phone started to ring, he ran over to the dresser, picked the phone from the telephone holder and answered it. “Hello”, he answered. “John, is this you?” The anonymous voice asked. “ Yes this is me, what do you want and who is this?” he asked. “Your neighbors are dead!” the voice exclaimed. He starts thinking to himself. Hmmm…. What is going on?… Is that dream reality?... He fell to the floor; after, he went into cardiac arrest. Before gasping for air to notice he was in cardiac arrest, he died. It could have not been the Jon everyone knew. 4 days later his aunt Clara appeared on his door step, looked in the window and seen his body laying on the floor. She banged on the window several of times and then screamed, “ Open up john…. Snap out if, John! The people are on their way to help. Please John, for me!” The body just lied there on the tile floor shaking. Next thing, Clara walked over to one of the boarded up windows and kicked in through the wood. She got into the house, walked through the kitchen into the room where John laid. She fell to her knees and cried. The cry was weird because she spoke of death upon his soul then she wished life for his remains. After she had done it, ambulance arrived. Paramedics rushed in through the door, Clara started screaming again. She cried aloud, “Please lord don’t take him from me!” Paramedics started lifting his body from the ground, he awakes. He then said, “ Clara, what are you doing here?” “Oh I’m just checking on you, John!” she said. “Can everybody leave now?” he asked. Everybody started to leave out the door. He shuts the door behind them. He finally walked upstairs to his bedroom and lie down. “Oh what a day,” he said. He was sleep again…